|I want to be like this proud momma... leading her beautiful little duckling (in an orderly fashion of course).|
When I was little...the earliest I remember was in 3rd grade...I had a vision of myself in the future. Actually I had many different visions...but they all had one thing in common. At first I wanted to be an Author...I imagined myself sitting at the beautiful vintage mahogany desk and typing away on a typewriter. Anne of Green Gables was my inspiration. Next, while in the 5th grade, I wanted to be an archaeologist. I saw myself as the female version of Indiana Jones...with the hat and minus the whip (I think, in my imagination, the whip had been replaced by Xena's Shakhram =D) Anyways, no matter what I grew up to be...in each vision I was a mother. That's right...somehow, even whilst traveling the world in search of lost civilizations, I always had a bunch of kids at my side...digging with me...exploring with me. I know how unrealistic that is NOW but hey...I was in the 5th grade. As I grew up, no matter, which direction life was going...I knew for sure that more than anything in this world...I wanted..needed to be a mother. I envisioned myself with lots and lots of babies. I don't know how or why such a deep desire grew in me...I'm sure lots of women have it but I wanted it baaaad...even more than I wanted my prince charming. At one point in my life when I thought that I would never find my true soul mate...I prayed to God that he would make it possible for me to at least adopt a child if not make me the next Mary of Nazareth (well, I don't want a prophet baby ..imagine the pressure!)
|At some point, Sunvi might have imagined us like this|
EDIT - *The fever hasn't yet made me insane enough to start trying for another one right now....